1 00:00:23,647 --> 00:00:25,638 I am a sick man. 2 00:00:27,287 --> 00:00:30,563 I think it's my liver, but I refuse to see a doctor. 3 00:00:31,967 --> 00:00:33,082 Out of spite. 4 00:00:36,647 --> 00:00:38,365 I am a resentful man. 5 00:00:41,247 --> 00:00:43,966 I've been like this for a long time. 6 00:00:46,647 --> 00:00:50,196 Before I worked in the Department of Urban Planning, but not anymore. 7 00:00:52,367 --> 00:00:54,244 He was a bad official. 8 00:00:55,727 --> 00:00:56,955 It was... 9 00:00:58,887 --> 00:01:00,036 impolite 10 00:01:00,367 --> 00:01:01,402 It was 11 00:01:02,007 --> 00:01:03,201 a resentful 12 00:01:06,567 --> 00:01:08,842 No, no, no. It isn't true. 13 00:01:09,007 --> 00:01:11,123 That's a lie. 14 00:01:11,287 --> 00:01:13,039 I'm not. I am nothing. 15 00:01:16,247 --> 00:01:18,124 I am a sick person. 16 00:01:19,687 --> 00:01:22,645 A disabled person. Too much introspection. 17 00:01:22,807 --> 00:01:25,082 Yes, excess consciousness It's a disease. 18 00:01:25,247 --> 00:01:27,681 a disease disabling, without a doubt. 19 00:01:35,887 --> 00:01:37,002 Tell me one thing: 20 00:01:37,887 --> 00:01:40,526 why have I done horrible things? 21 00:01:40,767 --> 00:01:44,726 Things I knew perfectly well that they were abominable? 22 00:01:48,847 --> 00:01:51,919 And when he promised me to change myself, 23 00:01:52,167 --> 00:01:55,477 behave better, I knew instantly that I was lying. 24 00:01:55,647 --> 00:01:58,605 Because... because I can't change. 25 00:02:00,527 --> 00:02:01,960 I think too much. 26 00:02:02,567 --> 00:02:04,080 That's my illness. 27 00:02:06,007 --> 00:02:07,440 It is better to do nothing. 28 00:02:11,687 --> 00:02:12,802 I'm lying! 29 00:02:13,767 --> 00:02:16,156 Even now, I lie. 30 00:02:20,287 --> 00:02:24,803 REFLECTIONS FROM THE BASEMENT 31 00:02:34,127 --> 00:02:37,164 I can totally be honest with myself? 32 00:02:38,087 --> 00:02:39,156 Can anyone be? 33 00:02:40,247 --> 00:02:42,317 some memories They are so terrible, 34 00:02:42,487 --> 00:02:44,842 that one could not Tell them not even to your friends. 35 00:02:45,287 --> 00:02:48,359 some are so horrible what i fear 36 00:02:48,527 --> 00:02:50,404 tell them to myself. 37 00:02:50,567 --> 00:02:52,797 And the better the man is, 38 00:02:52,967 --> 00:02:55,765 more of those secrets hidden. 39 00:02:57,807 --> 00:02:59,877 Now I want to remember. 40 00:03:00,927 --> 00:03:03,646 And I have this camera because I hope 41 00:03:03,807 --> 00:03:06,958 that if I tell it, if I see it, 42 00:03:07,927 --> 00:03:10,487 if I see myself telling it, then 43 00:03:11,767 --> 00:03:13,803 maybe I can free myself 44 00:03:15,607 --> 00:03:17,245 of this secret. 45 00:03:18,367 --> 00:03:19,846 If I'm honest... 46 00:03:24,407 --> 00:03:26,045 Today it is raining. 47 00:03:26,207 --> 00:03:28,163 Yesterday it rained too. 48 00:03:29,207 --> 00:03:33,120 The rain has evoked this memory that doesn't let me sleep. 49 00:03:34,127 --> 00:03:36,004 It happened twelve years ago. 50 00:03:36,167 --> 00:03:37,839 I was much younger. 51 00:03:38,007 --> 00:03:40,760 Not exactly carefree, I never was. 52 00:03:40,927 --> 00:03:43,885 But, in a certain sense, was happy, 53 00:03:44,687 --> 00:03:46,723 because he had authority. 54 00:03:51,367 --> 00:03:53,403 This toilet It is in the center. 55 00:03:54,007 --> 00:03:57,044 It's like this in all the bathrooms. 56 00:03:57,447 --> 00:04:00,120 - This is for the disabled. - Indeed. 57 00:04:00,847 --> 00:04:04,044 It should be offset 45 cm to provide a handle. 58 00:04:07,287 --> 00:04:08,766 Sure, of course. 59 00:04:08,927 --> 00:04:11,680 It's a draftsman's thing. It's easy to solve. 60 00:04:11,847 --> 00:04:15,157 Well then change it and bring it back. 61 00:04:18,287 --> 00:04:20,198 Aren't you going to give me the license? 62 00:04:20,367 --> 00:04:22,198 The plans do not fit to the regulations. 63 00:04:23,687 --> 00:04:26,121 You just have to move it half a meter. 64 00:04:29,287 --> 00:04:31,482 I'll have to waste another day in the queue 65 00:04:31,647 --> 00:04:33,638 so that they approve me a minor correction? 66 00:04:33,807 --> 00:04:34,956 It's the law. 67 00:04:35,247 --> 00:04:38,319 It's a third floor service! I will start with the foundations. 68 00:04:38,487 --> 00:04:40,045 They are only 45 cm! 69 00:04:40,207 --> 00:04:43,597 A huge distance... according to the rules. 70 00:04:46,887 --> 00:04:48,639 Can I talk to your boss? 71 00:04:49,087 --> 00:04:51,965 Of course. will be happy to talk to you. 72 00:05:02,487 --> 00:05:03,681 This is ridiculous! 73 00:05:05,567 --> 00:05:06,443 Suckers! 74 00:05:13,887 --> 00:05:17,766 With attractive women, He looked away first. 75 00:05:28,087 --> 00:05:30,157 He even did experiments. 76 00:05:30,367 --> 00:05:31,959 �Would I be able to to endure his gaze? 77 00:05:41,847 --> 00:05:43,724 APPROVED 78 00:05:46,247 --> 00:05:47,236 Thank you. 79 00:05:52,207 --> 00:05:55,119 Most of the time I preferred to be alone. 80 00:05:57,287 --> 00:05:59,357 I'm not trying to justify myself. 81 00:06:00,287 --> 00:06:02,323 No! I'm lying. 82 00:06:02,487 --> 00:06:05,126 That's exactly What I'm trying to do: Justify myself. 83 00:06:05,287 --> 00:06:07,198 But I don't want to lie. 84 00:06:08,607 --> 00:06:10,245 I have given my word. 85 00:06:29,287 --> 00:06:31,198 Every few months felt the need 86 00:06:31,367 --> 00:06:33,483 to relate with humanity. 87 00:06:33,687 --> 00:06:35,917 To some extent, at least. 88 00:06:39,287 --> 00:06:42,916 He only had one acquaintance. Actually I had several, 89 00:06:43,087 --> 00:06:45,885 but only one still deigned talk to me. 90 00:06:46,207 --> 00:06:47,117 Simon. 91 00:06:48,247 --> 00:06:51,523 I knew him from university. I only had Sundays free. 92 00:06:51,687 --> 00:06:54,121 So I was trying to my need for company 93 00:06:54,287 --> 00:06:56,517 it fell on a Sunday. 94 00:06:57,807 --> 00:07:01,516 I suspect he disliked me, that it was a mistake to go see him. 95 00:07:01,687 --> 00:07:05,475 But, as usual, my own doubts pushed me. 96 00:07:08,247 --> 00:07:11,876 Little did I imagine the fatalities consequences of my visit. 97 00:07:18,487 --> 00:07:19,442 Simon? 98 00:07:21,967 --> 00:07:23,639 We will play golf before dinner. 99 00:07:26,767 --> 00:07:28,405 I chose the best place. 100 00:07:28,567 --> 00:07:29,443 Simon? 101 00:07:31,647 --> 00:07:32,557 Hello. 102 00:07:32,847 --> 00:07:34,405 I was passing by here. 103 00:07:35,407 --> 00:07:36,317 Come in. 104 00:07:37,407 --> 00:07:40,717 Simon was with two companions from the university. 105 00:07:42,127 --> 00:07:43,640 I thought you would be alone. 106 00:07:44,207 --> 00:07:45,765 Well it's not like that. 107 00:07:45,927 --> 00:07:48,964 They barely greeted me, although we hadn't seen each other in years. 108 00:07:49,527 --> 00:07:52,599 I knew they were looking over me of the shoulder for my lack of success. 109 00:07:52,767 --> 00:07:54,678 Good. Don't be shy for me. 110 00:07:59,487 --> 00:08:03,196 I'll go with Mr. Z. Not all of us fit in the Porsche. 111 00:08:03,367 --> 00:08:06,120 Hang on a minute. This time I don't want to be a driver. 112 00:08:06,967 --> 00:08:10,118 They planned a farewell dinner for Philip Zerkov. 113 00:08:10,287 --> 00:08:12,323 He was another fellow student, 114 00:08:12,527 --> 00:08:14,677 someone to whom he especially hated. 115 00:08:16,047 --> 00:08:19,278 I hated the handsome face, stupid, by Zerkov, 116 00:08:19,567 --> 00:08:21,683 the way he dressed and wasted money. 117 00:08:22,167 --> 00:08:23,520 I was always broke. 118 00:08:25,287 --> 00:08:27,403 He no longer greeted me on the street. 119 00:08:32,367 --> 00:08:34,562 We go out to 100 bucks each, including Zerkov, 120 00:08:34,727 --> 00:08:37,241 but dinner will be fantastic and he likes the place. 121 00:08:37,407 --> 00:08:39,238 Imagine Zerkov letting us pay? 122 00:08:39,407 --> 00:08:42,365 You know, I will accept the detail, but it will go down 123 00:08:42,527 --> 00:08:44,483 with a bottle of Dom or Crystal, or something similar. 124 00:08:45,767 --> 00:08:49,362 Who are we to reject your generosity? That's Zerkov. 125 00:08:49,527 --> 00:08:53,042 Everything will be more boring around here when he's gone. 126 00:08:53,207 --> 00:08:54,242 Very sure. 127 00:08:54,407 --> 00:08:57,444 So it will cost us 300, including yours. 128 00:08:57,607 --> 00:09:00,519 A private dining room at the Café from Paris, tomorrow at 8. 129 00:09:00,687 --> 00:09:03,679 How about 300? Counting me there will be 400. 130 00:09:07,767 --> 00:09:10,201 I thought to invite me suddenly, 131 00:09:10,367 --> 00:09:12,722 so unexpectedly, It would be a great gesture, 132 00:09:12,887 --> 00:09:16,004 that would endear me to you and it would improve your opinion of me. 133 00:09:18,607 --> 00:09:20,404 Do you want to come to have dinner with us? 134 00:09:20,967 --> 00:09:24,403 Why not? Zerkov was also my classmate. 135 00:09:25,207 --> 00:09:27,437 Frankly, it bothers me that you leave me out. 136 00:09:27,607 --> 00:09:28,926 Did you expect us to invite you? 137 00:09:29,087 --> 00:09:32,204 - You hated him. Remember when... - You have no right to say that. 138 00:09:32,367 --> 00:09:34,483 Maybe that's why I wish to be invited, 139 00:09:34,647 --> 00:09:36,444 because I'm not on good terms with him. 140 00:09:36,607 --> 00:09:39,360 This is crazy. He is our friend and our party. 141 00:09:40,167 --> 00:09:42,806 - I also studied with him. - Okay, okay. 142 00:09:43,167 --> 00:09:46,603 If you want to come, Café de Paris tomorrow at 8. 143 00:09:46,847 --> 00:09:49,645 - What about the money? - That's enough, Jerry. 144 00:09:49,807 --> 00:09:52,719 If you want it so much let him come. 145 00:09:56,087 --> 00:09:57,839 Can you pay your share now? 146 00:10:06,167 --> 00:10:09,603 Then I remembered that I owed him Simon $50 for two years. 147 00:10:09,767 --> 00:10:11,598 Not that there was forgotten, not exactly. 148 00:10:11,767 --> 00:10:13,564 I just don't know I had returned it. 149 00:10:19,207 --> 00:10:21,801 You see, I don't carry it with me. 150 00:10:23,327 --> 00:10:25,887 But I haven't forgotten the 50 you lent me. 151 00:10:26,207 --> 00:10:28,323 You can pay me tomorrow. 152 00:10:29,487 --> 00:10:31,159 But this time don't forget. 153 00:10:32,567 --> 00:10:33,317 You see... 154 00:10:33,487 --> 00:10:36,763 We had already done plans for this afternoon. 155 00:10:36,927 --> 00:10:37,677 So... 156 00:10:39,207 --> 00:10:41,641 I'm sorry. Am I hindering you? 157 00:10:42,087 --> 00:10:45,841 - Yes. In fact... - Why haven't you told me? 158 00:10:50,727 --> 00:10:52,206 Brave cunt. 159 00:10:54,247 --> 00:10:55,839 What took over me? 160 00:10:56,007 --> 00:10:58,680 What forced me? to impose my presence? 161 00:10:58,847 --> 00:11:01,645 I knew I shouldn't go, but I I felt furious, precisely 162 00:11:01,807 --> 00:11:03,240 because I knew he would. 163 00:11:03,407 --> 00:11:05,363 I would insist on attending. 164 00:11:06,327 --> 00:11:07,476 Out of spite. 165 00:11:07,647 --> 00:11:09,956 And how much more embarrassing and my presence was inopportune 166 00:11:10,127 --> 00:11:12,243 the safer I was that he would come. 167 00:11:29,087 --> 00:11:31,681 When you return home it was saturated 168 00:11:31,847 --> 00:11:33,724 of contact with humanity. 169 00:11:40,287 --> 00:11:43,518 But the next morning I felt excited. 170 00:11:44,487 --> 00:11:46,284 I was going to attend a party. 171 00:11:47,527 --> 00:11:51,076 My enthusiasm dismayed me, but I couldn't help it. 172 00:11:52,847 --> 00:11:55,680 I had hope that my life will finally change. 173 00:11:56,047 --> 00:11:57,958 REJECTED 174 00:12:05,847 --> 00:12:09,806 I had doubts, of course, but it was not the time to think. 175 00:12:10,927 --> 00:12:14,761 I was about to experiment real life. 176 00:12:16,487 --> 00:12:20,241 I rummaged through the closet, obsessed with my appearance. 177 00:12:20,767 --> 00:12:22,883 Any idiot can dress well if you have money. 178 00:12:23,047 --> 00:12:26,926 I was afraid that my modest clothing it would lower my personal dignity. 179 00:12:38,807 --> 00:12:42,038 I had foreseen any contingency. 180 00:12:43,167 --> 00:12:45,761 I had even practiced my manners. 181 00:12:55,247 --> 00:12:56,282 Thank you. 182 00:12:59,727 --> 00:13:00,557 Thank you. 183 00:13:02,367 --> 00:13:04,722 I knew I was exaggerating. 184 00:13:04,887 --> 00:13:08,562 I was aware of my tendency to get things out of whack. 185 00:13:09,967 --> 00:13:12,435 The most intelligent thing it would have been not attending, 186 00:13:13,007 --> 00:13:15,043 but I dreamed of dominating them, 187 00:13:15,287 --> 00:13:17,084 by seducing them with my wit. 188 00:13:17,527 --> 00:13:18,755 There was also Zerkov! 189 00:13:19,207 --> 00:13:20,560 �I would crush him! 190 00:13:20,767 --> 00:13:24,043 Then we would forget and drink for our eternal friendship. 191 00:14:00,447 --> 00:14:02,358 I come to Zerkov's party. 192 00:14:07,847 --> 00:14:08,802 ! My God! 193 00:14:12,927 --> 00:14:16,044 Table for five. At eight o'clock. 194 00:14:16,287 --> 00:14:18,482 There is no such party. 195 00:14:19,287 --> 00:14:22,404 Then search for the name by Simon FitzGerald. 196 00:14:22,567 --> 00:14:23,886 There is no reservation. 197 00:14:24,287 --> 00:14:27,245 Here, FitzGerald, five, at nine. 198 00:14:28,047 --> 00:14:29,719 It had to be at eight. 199 00:14:29,887 --> 00:14:33,596 No, sir. I attend myself the reserves. It's at 9. 200 00:14:38,607 --> 00:14:40,279 They must have changed the time. 201 00:14:41,287 --> 00:14:44,165 - It's okay. I'll wait. - Wait at the bar. 202 00:14:45,407 --> 00:14:47,716 No, I'll wait in the dining room. 203 00:14:47,887 --> 00:14:49,843 It's a dining room private, correct, 204 00:14:50,007 --> 00:14:50,996 Monsieur? 205 00:14:52,807 --> 00:14:53,683 Oui. 206 00:14:54,967 --> 00:14:56,605 Accompany him. 207 00:15:02,887 --> 00:15:03,797 Thank you. 208 00:15:12,247 --> 00:15:13,157 Thank you. 209 00:15:35,087 --> 00:15:36,361 God! 210 00:16:42,367 --> 00:16:44,244 When they finally appeared 211 00:16:44,407 --> 00:16:48,320 I felt so relieved that I forgot to look offended. 212 00:16:48,487 --> 00:16:50,955 - The door on the left. - It's a labyrinth. 213 00:16:51,127 --> 00:16:54,483 It's just like Delmonico. Very nice. 214 00:16:58,127 --> 00:17:00,083 - How long. - Yes. 215 00:17:00,407 --> 00:17:02,284 Too much. Hello, Zerkov. 216 00:17:04,247 --> 00:17:05,600 How long have you been waiting? 217 00:17:05,927 --> 00:17:07,645 From 8 o'clock, like you told me. 218 00:17:09,287 --> 00:17:12,324 You didn't warn him of the time change? 219 00:17:12,487 --> 00:17:14,364 No, I didn't. I forgot. 220 00:17:14,887 --> 00:17:17,003 I'm sorry. Where are the appetizers? 221 00:17:17,167 --> 00:17:18,566 Wait a second. 222 00:17:18,727 --> 00:17:21,799 You've been here waiting more than an hour? 223 00:17:21,967 --> 00:17:24,640 � And us having drinks in the place next door? 224 00:17:25,207 --> 00:17:26,117 Yes. 225 00:17:26,487 --> 00:17:28,205 Poor thing! 226 00:17:28,407 --> 00:17:30,159 Have something cool. 227 00:17:30,327 --> 00:17:32,557 Let's all have another drink! 228 00:17:32,727 --> 00:17:34,319 If I had had to wait an hour... 229 00:17:34,927 --> 00:17:37,395 What are you laughing at? It's not funny. I think it's absurd! 230 00:17:39,367 --> 00:17:41,164 Simon would have that having told you, 231 00:17:41,327 --> 00:17:43,636 but it has so many things in the head. 232 00:17:43,807 --> 00:17:46,480 Let's sit down. The first dish has arrived. 233 00:17:50,927 --> 00:17:53,919 You see, I couldn't call you 234 00:17:54,927 --> 00:17:56,565 because you don't have a phone. 235 00:18:04,847 --> 00:18:05,802 Good. 236 00:18:11,887 --> 00:18:13,002 Sincerely, 237 00:18:13,647 --> 00:18:16,002 I was surprised 238 00:18:17,487 --> 00:18:19,682 that you would like to join to us tonight. 239 00:18:19,847 --> 00:18:22,441 You have always easily surprised. 240 00:18:23,967 --> 00:18:26,197 How do you earn? life lately? 241 00:18:26,927 --> 00:18:28,485 I work in the Department of Urbanism. 242 00:18:29,567 --> 00:18:32,479 Very interesting. At City Hall, right? 243 00:18:33,127 --> 00:18:36,119 What are you doing there? 244 00:18:38,247 --> 00:18:40,761 I had not expected such condescension. 245 00:18:41,127 --> 00:18:44,403 One thing would have been that he wanted to offend me 246 00:18:44,567 --> 00:18:47,206 with his superior attitude, but what if really 247 00:18:47,367 --> 00:18:51,406 He believed himself superior and could only be patronizing towards me? 248 00:18:53,327 --> 00:18:55,283 The mere idea It took my breath away. 249 00:19:06,567 --> 00:19:09,479 I am a sub-inspector of Planning. 250 00:19:09,727 --> 00:19:12,764 It seems like a good job. 251 00:19:12,927 --> 00:19:15,077 - Yes, it's a good job. - Great. 252 00:19:15,247 --> 00:19:17,681 I didn't mean to imply anything. It's just... you know. 253 00:19:17,847 --> 00:19:19,565 I have always wondered why You left the Faculty. 254 00:19:19,727 --> 00:19:22,685 - I couldn't stand the pressure. - It's not for everyone. 255 00:19:22,927 --> 00:19:25,395 Kafka said that lawyers They chew the detritus of others. 256 00:19:25,567 --> 00:19:27,444 And they laugh on the way to the bank. 257 00:19:27,607 --> 00:19:29,962 � And how things are going in the Department? 258 00:19:30,607 --> 00:19:31,722 Have you stopped hitting? to your wife? 259 00:19:31,887 --> 00:19:35,118 Why are you talking to me? questioning? 260 00:19:35,287 --> 00:19:38,199 We can't talk of something more intelligent? 261 00:19:38,407 --> 00:19:40,682 I suppose you intend show off your intelligence. 262 00:19:41,727 --> 00:19:44,082 It would be out of place here. 263 00:19:44,247 --> 00:19:46,397 I'm sorry we're not so intellectual 264 00:19:46,567 --> 00:19:48,842 like your colleagues of Urbanism. 265 00:19:49,847 --> 00:19:51,803 - Enough! That's it! - This is insane! 266 00:19:51,967 --> 00:19:53,195 It's insane. 267 00:19:53,647 --> 00:19:55,717 This is a dinner farewell to Zerkov, 268 00:19:56,087 --> 00:19:59,045 the new general advisor of the Santa Fe Silver, 269 00:19:59,967 --> 00:20:01,400 and you are being rude. 270 00:20:02,207 --> 00:20:04,437 You have invited yourself, 271 00:20:04,607 --> 00:20:06,438 so don't be a party pooper. 272 00:20:09,847 --> 00:20:11,883 I didn't like them those cretins! 273 00:20:12,207 --> 00:20:14,118 And he had made a fool of himself!! 274 00:20:15,327 --> 00:20:18,524 They thought they were making me an honor letting me be there. 275 00:20:19,047 --> 00:20:20,560 I didn't care about the money. 276 00:20:20,927 --> 00:20:24,602 I could just leave, disappear. Make them look down on you! 277 00:20:28,727 --> 00:20:31,480 I looked and asked: "Have you cum yet?" 278 00:20:31,887 --> 00:20:34,845 Oh my god, Z, what did she say? 279 00:20:35,567 --> 00:20:37,523 It's rude talk with your mouth full. 280 00:20:37,687 --> 00:20:39,166 Jesus, I can't believe it. 281 00:20:40,567 --> 00:20:42,364 A toast to Zerkov 282 00:20:42,567 --> 00:20:44,239 and for all women that he leaves behind. 283 00:20:45,447 --> 00:20:47,677 To your health, and good luck 284 00:20:48,247 --> 00:20:49,521 in the "Enchanted Land". 285 00:20:49,767 --> 00:20:50,517 Well said! 286 00:20:53,087 --> 00:20:54,600 "You're not going to toast with us? 287 00:20:55,047 --> 00:20:58,119 you have not done more than drinking. 288 00:20:58,847 --> 00:21:01,645 I want to make my own toast. Then drink. 289 00:21:01,807 --> 00:21:03,877 - What an idiot... - Silence! 290 00:21:04,087 --> 00:21:06,965 Let's hear that sample of dazzling ingenuity! 291 00:21:10,087 --> 00:21:11,839 Let me say first that 292 00:21:13,247 --> 00:21:15,522 I hate those who They make speeches. 293 00:21:16,007 --> 00:21:18,521 I hate people who worship the sound of your own voice. 294 00:21:18,687 --> 00:21:19,802 That first of all. 295 00:21:19,967 --> 00:21:21,320 There is a second point. 296 00:21:22,607 --> 00:21:23,642 The second 297 00:21:24,167 --> 00:21:25,520 point is that 298 00:21:27,527 --> 00:21:29,597 I hate lasciviousness 299 00:21:29,927 --> 00:21:31,758 and to those who speak with lust. 300 00:21:31,927 --> 00:21:33,155 The third question 301 00:21:33,487 --> 00:21:34,806 is that I love 302 00:21:34,967 --> 00:21:35,922 the truth, 303 00:21:36,487 --> 00:21:37,476 the beauty, 304 00:21:38,007 --> 00:21:38,962 intelligence 305 00:21:39,447 --> 00:21:41,039 and friendship. 306 00:21:42,047 --> 00:21:42,843 friendship 307 00:21:44,167 --> 00:21:46,681 on common ground, as equal to equal. 308 00:21:49,127 --> 00:21:50,924 To your health, Zerkov. 309 00:21:51,247 --> 00:21:53,681 May you seduce to all women 310 00:21:53,847 --> 00:21:55,075 of New Mexico. 311 00:22:01,207 --> 00:22:02,481 Wow, thanks 312 00:22:02,807 --> 00:22:03,876 for a... 313 00:22:05,367 --> 00:22:06,880 For a memorable toast. 314 00:22:08,447 --> 00:22:11,166 Damn you! You are asking a punch to the whole face. 315 00:22:11,327 --> 00:22:12,077 He doesn't know how to drink. 316 00:22:12,527 --> 00:22:14,006 He's a repulsive drunk. 317 00:22:14,167 --> 00:22:16,158 Come on! "You will not take Are you serious about what you said? 318 00:22:17,487 --> 00:22:19,318 Go outside, egocentric brat, 319 00:22:19,567 --> 00:22:20,682 so that I can break your soul. 320 00:22:20,847 --> 00:22:22,075 With great pleasure. 321 00:22:22,567 --> 00:22:25,559 Ignore him, Jerry. I already told you he's drunk. 322 00:22:26,007 --> 00:22:28,567 I will never forgive myself for having allowed him to come. 323 00:22:30,047 --> 00:22:32,197 It's time to crush their heads. 324 00:22:42,687 --> 00:22:44,564 Will it be possible? 325 00:22:45,647 --> 00:22:47,956 Look at him. He doesn't even listen to us. 326 00:22:49,807 --> 00:22:51,559 They would have loved it that I would have left. 327 00:22:51,807 --> 00:22:54,162 But I stayed there sitting, drinking, 328 00:22:54,647 --> 00:22:56,478 out of pure resentment. Yes. 329 00:22:56,767 --> 00:22:58,120 Out of spite! 330 00:23:00,247 --> 00:23:03,319 Brandy makes me philosophical. 331 00:23:04,967 --> 00:23:07,435 To me, out. 332 00:23:07,847 --> 00:23:08,882 Exactly! 333 00:23:09,327 --> 00:23:12,000 That dualistic thing of Descartes, 334 00:23:12,167 --> 00:23:13,805 about the body and mind. 335 00:23:22,407 --> 00:23:24,125 We are not laughing at you. 336 00:23:26,967 --> 00:23:29,037 we have to talk of our ski excursion. 337 00:23:31,327 --> 00:23:33,045 - To Jackson Hole. - To Vermont. 338 00:23:33,287 --> 00:23:35,323 To Vermont? We haven't been to Vermont. 339 00:23:36,807 --> 00:23:39,446 You have to understand deposits because you quote for them. 340 00:23:39,607 --> 00:23:42,724 Of course you don't pay until you get the money. 341 00:23:43,127 --> 00:23:45,163 They are not tax free. 342 00:23:45,407 --> 00:23:47,841 - They deceive us. - I don't pay taxes. 343 00:23:49,087 --> 00:23:50,440 What are you, a priest? 344 00:23:53,287 --> 00:23:55,118 I can't believe let him be managing director. 345 00:23:55,287 --> 00:23:58,245 At the end of the day, I peed on his chest once. 346 00:23:58,407 --> 00:24:02,082 I walked for more than an hour. They acted as if I wasn't there. 347 00:24:03,127 --> 00:24:05,960 I couldn't fall any lower. 348 00:24:08,487 --> 00:24:10,682 Friends, paraphrasing Caesar, 349 00:24:11,367 --> 00:24:13,517 It's time for Vidi, Vinci, 350 00:24:13,727 --> 00:24:15,206 I came. 351 00:24:16,367 --> 00:24:18,562 I saw, I conquered, 352 00:24:19,727 --> 00:24:20,762 I came. 353 00:24:22,167 --> 00:24:24,362 I propose one last visit 354 00:24:24,527 --> 00:24:25,960 to the immortal, 355 00:24:26,527 --> 00:24:28,085 to the ineffable 356 00:24:29,727 --> 00:24:31,524 House of Blue Lamps. 357 00:24:31,807 --> 00:24:32,842 Cheers! The note, please. 358 00:24:33,287 --> 00:24:34,845 Zerkov, please, 359 00:24:35,527 --> 00:24:36,926 I want to apologize. 360 00:24:37,087 --> 00:24:39,157 Simon, Jerry, Tom, all of you. 361 00:24:39,327 --> 00:24:41,363 I want to apologize to you. 362 00:24:41,567 --> 00:24:44,718 I have insulted you and I feel terrible. 363 00:24:44,887 --> 00:24:47,355 Does that mean Aren't we going to go out and hit each other? 364 00:24:47,567 --> 00:24:49,398 I'm not afraid to fight with you. 365 00:24:49,767 --> 00:24:51,246 But first, forgive me. 366 00:24:52,887 --> 00:24:53,922 I forgive you. 367 00:24:54,247 --> 00:24:56,158 He's just looking to feel better. 368 00:24:56,327 --> 00:24:57,442 He's rambling. 369 00:24:57,607 --> 00:25:00,758 Stand aside and let me pass. That's all I ask of you. 370 00:25:02,007 --> 00:25:05,124 Before you didn't even talk to me. What do you want from me? 371 00:25:06,327 --> 00:25:09,160 Your friendship, Zerkov. 372 00:25:09,327 --> 00:25:11,682 I have behaved terribly. I have insulted you, but... 373 00:25:11,847 --> 00:25:14,236 What have you insulted me? You insult me! 374 00:25:15,727 --> 00:25:18,082 You could never insult me! 375 00:25:18,247 --> 00:25:21,319 Enough of the shit. Get out! Get away! 376 00:25:21,487 --> 00:25:23,557 The House of Lamps Blues calling us! 377 00:25:23,727 --> 00:25:24,921 I ask Julie! 378 00:25:25,647 --> 00:25:29,242 Simon, please lend me something so that I can go with you. 379 00:25:29,807 --> 00:25:31,877 � Come with us? After this? 380 00:25:32,047 --> 00:25:34,436 As a favor from a friend, Simon. I'll give it back to you tomorrow. 381 00:25:35,927 --> 00:25:37,963 It means a lot to me. 382 00:25:38,247 --> 00:25:39,202 Wait a minute. 383 00:25:39,367 --> 00:25:41,881 � And the $100 you owe me from tonight? 384 00:25:42,047 --> 00:25:44,003 � And the 50 from before? 385 00:25:45,367 --> 00:25:46,686 Can I give you a check? 386 00:25:47,247 --> 00:25:50,364 - Tomorrow. I don't carry a checkbook. - You are incredible! 387 00:25:50,567 --> 00:25:52,683 Simon, you have money. I have seen it. 388 00:25:53,087 --> 00:25:54,440 Not for you. 389 00:25:55,047 --> 00:25:58,357 If you knew... If you knew why I ask it. 390 00:25:59,087 --> 00:26:01,362 My future depends on it. 391 00:26:03,207 --> 00:26:04,322 You are crazy. 392 00:26:05,487 --> 00:26:06,806 Crazy as hell. 393 00:26:16,207 --> 00:26:17,117 Look. 394 00:26:18,007 --> 00:26:19,281 Take 10 dollars. 395 00:26:20,567 --> 00:26:22,000 do yourself a favor 396 00:26:23,087 --> 00:26:24,725 and take a taxi home. 397 00:26:32,727 --> 00:26:35,480 I took a taxi, but I didn't go home. 398 00:26:36,327 --> 00:26:37,885 This is it, I thought. 399 00:26:38,047 --> 00:26:41,084 Finally, real life. �Conflicts! �Emotions! 400 00:26:41,447 --> 00:26:44,484 They will get on their knees, they will implore my friendship. 401 00:26:45,247 --> 00:26:48,478 Then I thought: No, they won't, so I will have 402 00:26:48,647 --> 00:26:50,603 than break Zerkov's face. 403 00:26:54,327 --> 00:26:56,238 �It was my duty to hit him! 404 00:26:56,447 --> 00:26:57,766 I had to do it! 405 00:26:59,087 --> 00:27:01,442 �I shouldn't say some words before, 406 00:27:02,967 --> 00:27:06,482 explain to him why he had me offended by his attitude? 407 00:27:08,447 --> 00:27:12,156 No, I knew it wouldn't work. I had to attack 408 00:27:12,327 --> 00:27:14,318 Zerkov immediately, hit him! 409 00:27:14,487 --> 00:27:15,636 I had to hurt him! 410 00:27:21,327 --> 00:27:23,283 I imagined myself detained, 411 00:27:23,767 --> 00:27:26,600 judged, condemned, imprisoned for twenty years. 412 00:27:26,927 --> 00:27:28,963 On departure I'm going to visit Zerkov. 413 00:27:29,127 --> 00:27:31,357 He is happily married. He has a daughter and a son. 414 00:27:31,767 --> 00:27:33,962 I tell him that I have lost him all for his cause, 415 00:27:34,127 --> 00:27:36,243 but, still, I forgive him. 416 00:27:41,367 --> 00:27:44,040 I still remember, point by point, 417 00:27:44,447 --> 00:27:46,802 my elaborate vision of suffering and redemption 418 00:27:46,967 --> 00:27:49,561 while traveling drunk in that taxi. 419 00:27:54,247 --> 00:27:55,282 Ten and twenty. 420 00:27:56,487 --> 00:27:58,205 Here you go, ten. 421 00:27:58,807 --> 00:28:00,763 - It's 10 and 20. - Yes. 422 00:28:02,927 --> 00:28:04,519 - Take a dollar. - I'll give you the change. 423 00:28:04,687 --> 00:28:06,757 - Keep it. - Thank you. 424 00:28:34,287 --> 00:28:36,676 I need to talk to Zerkov. 425 00:28:37,847 --> 00:28:38,882 � And you are...? 426 00:28:39,567 --> 00:28:41,205 I am a friend of yours. 427 00:28:41,367 --> 00:28:43,562 - Are you friends with Zerkov? - And the others too. 428 00:28:43,727 --> 00:28:45,046 From Tom, from Jerry. Are they here? 429 00:28:45,887 --> 00:28:48,037 At this moment They are very busy. 430 00:28:49,327 --> 00:28:50,396 Too late. 431 00:28:50,887 --> 00:28:52,161 It's never too late. 432 00:28:52,607 --> 00:28:54,325 I will give you the group rate, 433 00:28:54,567 --> 00:28:56,717 since he is a friend of Zerkov. 434 00:28:59,087 --> 00:29:02,363 I wanted to slap him, fight him, crush him! 435 00:29:03,327 --> 00:29:04,885 But it was not available 436 00:29:05,367 --> 00:29:06,561 and everything... 437 00:29:08,367 --> 00:29:10,358 everything disappeared. 438 00:29:19,207 --> 00:29:20,276 My God! 439 00:29:23,327 --> 00:29:24,601 This is wonderful. 440 00:29:26,167 --> 00:29:28,965 How stupid I have been! �No we need to fight! Let's have fun! 441 00:29:29,127 --> 00:29:31,118 Well said, that is the spirit. 442 00:29:31,287 --> 00:29:32,720 I can 443 00:29:33,847 --> 00:29:35,724 sleep with anyone of those women? 444 00:29:35,887 --> 00:29:38,037 Yes. With any of them. 445 00:29:41,927 --> 00:29:43,280 How much does it cost? 446 00:29:43,447 --> 00:29:45,324 The minimum rate It's 100 dollars. 447 00:29:46,447 --> 00:29:47,800 We accept cards. 448 00:30:08,247 --> 00:30:09,236 She. 449 00:30:12,647 --> 00:30:13,602 Liza. 450 00:30:20,967 --> 00:30:22,719 Your credit card, please. 451 00:30:25,447 --> 00:30:27,278 I was attracted to her immediately. 452 00:30:29,487 --> 00:30:31,398 I especially liked 453 00:30:32,887 --> 00:30:34,764 that he didn't smile. 454 00:30:45,007 --> 00:30:47,362 I was pleased that I would find repulsive. 455 00:30:49,567 --> 00:30:51,364 It matched my state of mood. 456 00:31:27,007 --> 00:31:29,396 The images followed one another in my brain, 457 00:31:29,887 --> 00:31:31,878 the spoils of my degradation. 458 00:31:55,407 --> 00:31:57,204 They sprouted in me misfortune and resentment. 459 00:31:57,367 --> 00:31:59,119 He desired power, domination. 460 00:32:00,647 --> 00:32:02,797 He had not found Zerkov, 461 00:32:03,167 --> 00:32:05,078 but I had found a new goal. 462 00:32:08,087 --> 00:32:09,361 Where are you from? 463 00:32:10,727 --> 00:32:11,842 From Minnesota. 464 00:32:13,767 --> 00:32:15,200 Have you been here long? 465 00:32:16,127 --> 00:32:17,242 In the city? 466 00:32:17,567 --> 00:32:18,716 No. On this site. 467 00:32:19,207 --> 00:32:20,356 Two weeks. 468 00:32:21,287 --> 00:32:22,686 What does it matter to you? 469 00:32:23,327 --> 00:32:25,966 I don't mind. I'm sorry. 470 00:32:26,567 --> 00:32:27,966 Shame on whom? 471 00:32:28,687 --> 00:32:29,915 Shame on you. 472 00:32:30,847 --> 00:32:31,882 Keep it. 473 00:32:36,367 --> 00:32:37,846 That provoked me. 474 00:32:39,487 --> 00:32:41,876 I was being very kind to her. 475 00:32:50,367 --> 00:32:52,119 Do you think you are doing well? 476 00:32:52,847 --> 00:32:54,280 I don't think anything. 477 00:32:54,447 --> 00:32:56,199 That's the bad thing, that you don't think 478 00:32:57,647 --> 00:32:59,603 If you did you would go crazy. 479 00:32:59,847 --> 00:33:02,361 �Work on this den of death! 480 00:33:04,087 --> 00:33:06,362 You can practice "safe sex", of course. 481 00:33:06,527 --> 00:33:09,724 �But you can do it two, three thousand times? 482 00:33:10,047 --> 00:33:12,720 Are you completely sure that there won't be an error? 483 00:33:12,887 --> 00:33:14,559 That the condom won't break? 484 00:33:16,447 --> 00:33:19,007 Furthermore, there are many possibilities that you end up hanging. 485 00:33:19,167 --> 00:33:21,886 - I don't take drugs. - Maybe not now. 486 00:33:24,527 --> 00:33:27,041 But wait until you have opened of legs for 2,000 guys. 487 00:33:27,207 --> 00:33:30,040 Damn, if I saw myself swimming in a lake of stale semen 488 00:33:30,887 --> 00:33:32,843 I would be tempted to take them. 489 00:33:35,607 --> 00:33:37,518 You don't care be alive or dead? 490 00:33:38,207 --> 00:33:40,675 You should start thinking before it's too late. 491 00:33:40,847 --> 00:33:42,405 You are young, beautiful. 492 00:33:43,047 --> 00:33:45,880 You could fall in love, get married, be happy. 493 00:33:46,447 --> 00:33:48,881 Not everyone who is married They are happy. 494 00:33:49,047 --> 00:33:52,926 No, but it's better than working here. Infinitely better. 495 00:33:56,647 --> 00:33:58,842 Look at me, here lying with you. 496 00:33:59,007 --> 00:34:00,281 I am worse than you. 497 00:34:01,887 --> 00:34:04,799 We just fucked and we haven't Open your mouth at all times. 498 00:34:04,967 --> 00:34:06,844 It's now when we are doing it. 499 00:34:09,087 --> 00:34:11,555 It is degrading that I can come here drunk 500 00:34:11,967 --> 00:34:14,037 and resort to a card of credit for... 501 00:34:14,647 --> 00:34:16,046 fuck a stranger. 502 00:34:18,167 --> 00:34:19,316 It's disgusting! 503 00:34:21,007 --> 00:34:22,804 - It's embarrassing! - Yes! 504 00:34:27,927 --> 00:34:29,804 She really interested me. 505 00:34:30,087 --> 00:34:32,396 I was exhausted and irritated. 506 00:34:32,767 --> 00:34:33,882 I had to avoid falling 507 00:34:34,047 --> 00:34:35,275 in sentimentality. 508 00:34:44,647 --> 00:34:46,524 How did you get here? 509 00:34:49,127 --> 00:34:50,242 I don't know. 510 00:34:51,287 --> 00:34:53,517 Wouldn't you like to go back to your house? 511 00:34:54,127 --> 00:34:55,037 No. 512 00:35:00,527 --> 00:35:01,960 Surely your house It was worse than this. 513 00:35:02,127 --> 00:35:04,118 Why else would I want a girl? how do you come here? 514 00:35:05,727 --> 00:35:07,080 A girl like me? 515 00:35:08,167 --> 00:35:11,284 You don't belong here. It's obvious he's not worthy of you. 516 00:35:18,207 --> 00:35:20,721 Maybe it showed me manipulator, 517 00:35:21,447 --> 00:35:23,722 but he was also sincere. 518 00:35:29,487 --> 00:35:33,446 I also come from a bad home. Or rather I grew up without it. 519 00:35:35,447 --> 00:35:38,598 Maybe that's why I'm so insensitive. 520 00:35:40,127 --> 00:35:41,845 You are not insensitive. 521 00:35:44,207 --> 00:35:45,686 Thanks, but... 522 00:35:46,287 --> 00:35:47,242 I know I am. 523 00:35:48,127 --> 00:35:51,164 I grew up without affection, without father or mother. 524 00:35:51,327 --> 00:35:52,919 Maybe that's why you think 525 00:35:53,647 --> 00:35:55,638 so much in love. 526 00:35:58,127 --> 00:36:01,119 Not all married They are happy, 527 00:36:02,167 --> 00:36:04,635 but marriage It is something more than bliss. 528 00:36:07,647 --> 00:36:08,921 You will surely find out 529 00:36:10,447 --> 00:36:13,598 if you ever get married. 530 00:36:13,767 --> 00:36:15,485 If you get married. 531 00:36:20,327 --> 00:36:23,160 Seeing you here makes me sick. 532 00:36:25,447 --> 00:36:27,756 You are young and attractive, but 533 00:36:28,167 --> 00:36:31,364 you will get old, or you will catch something and you will be dead in a year. 534 00:36:31,807 --> 00:36:35,402 You are young now, but stop to tell you that when you wake up, 535 00:36:37,207 --> 00:36:40,438 after having fucked, I have felt sick. 536 00:36:42,487 --> 00:36:44,796 For being here with you! 537 00:36:49,487 --> 00:36:50,840 Love, Liza. 538 00:36:52,527 --> 00:36:54,006 Love is everything. 539 00:36:55,847 --> 00:36:58,600 You're throwing it all away overboard: Cheers, 540 00:36:59,087 --> 00:37:00,202 beauty 541 00:37:00,967 --> 00:37:02,116 and hope. 542 00:37:04,527 --> 00:37:06,757 In two years You look like you're 40... 543 00:37:07,087 --> 00:37:08,759 if you're still alive. 544 00:37:22,647 --> 00:37:23,682 Liza. 545 00:37:26,407 --> 00:37:28,238 I had achieved my purpose. 546 00:37:28,807 --> 00:37:31,275 It had turned upside down your feelings. 547 00:37:31,447 --> 00:37:32,675 Out of spite. 548 00:37:33,367 --> 00:37:35,278 It was a real emotion. 549 00:37:37,247 --> 00:37:38,726 And I panicked... 550 00:38:10,287 --> 00:38:12,517 Liza, honey, Liza. 551 00:38:14,087 --> 00:38:16,806 My God, Liza, forgive me. 552 00:38:17,767 --> 00:38:19,086 I have been unfair. 553 00:38:43,887 --> 00:38:44,797 Take. 554 00:38:46,447 --> 00:38:48,039 It's my address. 555 00:38:51,767 --> 00:38:54,156 I want you to leave this 556 00:38:56,167 --> 00:38:57,486 and come with me. 557 00:39:23,087 --> 00:39:24,600 Go. 558 00:39:29,487 --> 00:39:30,283 Good. 559 00:39:55,767 --> 00:39:57,041 I'm leaving. 560 00:40:04,167 --> 00:40:05,998 - Goodbye. - Goodbye. 561 00:40:36,767 --> 00:40:39,998 I was amazed by my sentimentality towards Liza. 562 00:40:41,447 --> 00:40:43,403 Why had he given him my address? 563 00:40:43,567 --> 00:40:45,523 What if he showed up? What would I do then? 564 00:40:46,847 --> 00:40:48,246 What had he done? 565 00:41:09,287 --> 00:41:11,243 Well, let him come. 566 00:41:11,407 --> 00:41:14,240 �What can it do to me? She is nothing more than a whore. 567 00:41:14,407 --> 00:41:16,602 I'll laugh in her face, throw her out. 568 00:41:17,447 --> 00:41:20,803 But I had a problem more pressing. 569 00:41:22,087 --> 00:41:25,477 I had to save the guy with Zerkov, Simon and the others. 570 00:41:25,647 --> 00:41:29,356 That was crucial and required speed and decisiveness. 571 00:41:39,887 --> 00:41:42,879 What a pleasant surprise... Here you are: On your time and radiant. 572 00:41:43,047 --> 00:41:45,003 Yes, good morning. 573 00:41:47,727 --> 00:41:50,241 I have a favor What to ask you, Anthony. 574 00:41:50,887 --> 00:41:51,876 Yes? 575 00:41:53,847 --> 00:41:56,600 Could you lend me $100? Or better 150... 576 00:41:56,767 --> 00:41:59,361 let it be 160. 577 00:42:00,567 --> 00:42:02,046 It is very important. 578 00:42:02,607 --> 00:42:05,838 It's something personal that I find very embarrassing to explain. 579 00:42:06,327 --> 00:42:09,524 - I will return them to you when I get paid. - Clear. Count on it. 580 00:42:10,567 --> 00:42:11,716 Thank you. 581 00:42:12,047 --> 00:42:15,437 But promise me you won't forget this time, like the previous one. 582 00:42:15,607 --> 00:42:18,679 No no. There were circumstances 583 00:42:18,847 --> 00:42:20,883 mitigating. I don't know if you understand what i want to say. 584 00:42:21,047 --> 00:42:24,517 What I say is that nothing of extenuating circumstances, okay? 585 00:42:26,287 --> 00:42:29,245 Of course, more would be missing, no way... 586 00:42:29,407 --> 00:42:32,240 Just give me back the 160 dollars 587 00:42:32,407 --> 00:42:33,999 next Thursday. 588 00:42:34,447 --> 00:42:37,439 I will pay you the 160 next Thursday. 589 00:42:37,607 --> 00:42:40,440 - Without the slightest doubt. - Very good. Give me my checkbook. 590 00:42:42,567 --> 00:42:45,161 In fact, I would prefer in cash. 591 00:42:45,327 --> 00:42:47,238 Then we will have to wait until lunch time. 592 00:42:47,407 --> 00:42:50,399 - Can't you go to the ATM now? - No. I don't have time. 593 00:42:51,367 --> 00:42:52,846 Okay, a check will do. 594 00:42:53,727 --> 00:42:54,716 Good morning. 595 00:43:04,407 --> 00:43:06,796 Could you put it in your name? from a third person? 596 00:43:06,967 --> 00:43:09,720 Normally I wouldn't ask for something like that, but it is important. 597 00:43:09,887 --> 00:43:11,286 No, wait. 598 00:43:12,647 --> 00:43:16,003 Put it in my name. You will enter it and I will make one of my own. 599 00:43:16,447 --> 00:43:17,721 Have you decided yet? 600 00:43:18,367 --> 00:43:21,643 Put it in my name as I was going to do. It will be perfectly fine. 601 00:43:25,327 --> 00:43:27,158 we passed it wonderfully last night. 602 00:43:27,407 --> 00:43:29,125 A party with colleagues of studies 603 00:43:29,287 --> 00:43:30,766 in a private dining room Paris Coffee. 604 00:43:30,927 --> 00:43:32,246 Yes? How good. 605 00:43:35,247 --> 00:43:36,202 Thank you. 606 00:43:36,967 --> 00:43:38,082 It's a pleasure. 607 00:43:44,567 --> 00:43:47,604 I must say that I wasn't worried. Anthony's tone. 608 00:43:47,767 --> 00:43:51,282 Although it wouldn't have cost him anything be polite about the whole thing. 609 00:44:03,247 --> 00:44:07,001 I immediately wrote a note for Simon to accompany the heel. 610 00:44:07,767 --> 00:44:09,485 With tact, 611 00:44:09,687 --> 00:44:10,881 elegance 612 00:44:11,207 --> 00:44:13,721 and, above all, brevity. I blamed myself 613 00:44:13,887 --> 00:44:15,525 of everything that had happened. 614 00:44:17,527 --> 00:44:21,281 Even today I feel delighted with a light, casual tone, 615 00:44:21,447 --> 00:44:23,199 that I managed to transmit. 616 00:44:23,367 --> 00:44:27,155 I told Simon that I wasn't feeling violent because of what happened. 617 00:44:28,247 --> 00:44:30,442 He blamed the wine of my behavior. 618 00:44:32,167 --> 00:44:34,727 And maybe everything happened for the wine I drank. 619 00:44:37,567 --> 00:44:40,320 No, it wasn't the wine. 620 00:44:40,487 --> 00:44:42,205 No, I lied to Simon. 621 00:44:43,007 --> 00:44:44,838 I blatantly lied. 622 00:44:46,127 --> 00:44:48,197 but then I didn't feel ashamed. 623 00:44:48,887 --> 00:44:51,560 It seemed appropriate given the situation. 624 00:44:51,727 --> 00:44:55,481 - Is there a problem? - No, no problem. 625 00:44:58,847 --> 00:45:01,441 -Then why don't you attend to him? - I'm attending to you. 626 00:45:01,607 --> 00:45:02,756 Are you cared for? 627 00:45:04,007 --> 00:45:05,201 APPROVED 628 00:45:16,007 --> 00:45:17,042 Next! 629 00:45:34,407 --> 00:45:37,717 I had managed to apologize and pay my debt. 630 00:45:38,647 --> 00:45:40,877 My letter solved everything. 631 00:45:42,727 --> 00:45:44,957 But I was still worried about Liza. 632 00:45:45,127 --> 00:45:47,163 It worried me that could appear. 633 00:45:49,487 --> 00:45:50,442 What's wrong? 634 00:45:51,047 --> 00:45:53,038 You would see that he lived in a pigsty. 635 00:45:54,167 --> 00:45:55,998 Maybe it wasn't just that. 636 00:45:56,407 --> 00:45:59,558 There was something worse, something dirtier... 637 00:46:02,447 --> 00:46:03,641 The lies! 638 00:46:04,247 --> 00:46:06,522 I would lie to you again! I knew you would! 639 00:46:49,887 --> 00:46:51,878 Maybe I lied to you. 640 00:46:52,167 --> 00:46:55,079 But I also told him some truths. 641 00:46:55,607 --> 00:46:56,960 That she had believed. 642 00:46:58,047 --> 00:47:00,607 His crying was good, 643 00:47:01,087 --> 00:47:03,157 and it could have an effect positive in it. 644 00:47:16,607 --> 00:47:18,438 No, you're not... 645 00:47:19,207 --> 00:47:20,276 you are not insensitive... 646 00:47:29,087 --> 00:47:32,602 No, you are not. 647 00:47:32,967 --> 00:47:36,596 You are not cruel, you are not cruel. 648 00:47:39,567 --> 00:47:42,206 I was disturbed again all night. 649 00:47:51,727 --> 00:47:54,241 However, the next morning, 650 00:47:54,407 --> 00:47:57,444 I rejected it all as nonsense product of my nerves, 651 00:47:57,607 --> 00:47:58,596 an exaggeration. 652 00:48:01,007 --> 00:48:03,567 But I knew that Liza it would come anyway, 653 00:48:03,727 --> 00:48:06,082 if not that day, the next. 654 00:48:07,927 --> 00:48:11,363 Another recurring idea was that of go see her, apologize, 655 00:48:11,527 --> 00:48:13,483 and ask him not to come. 656 00:48:14,447 --> 00:48:16,165 �But that irritated me! 657 00:48:16,327 --> 00:48:18,397 �Why did I have to apologize? 658 00:48:19,647 --> 00:48:21,319 Who does he think he is? 659 00:48:22,127 --> 00:48:24,482 Who did she think she was? 660 00:48:30,687 --> 00:48:31,881 The weather... 661 00:48:33,327 --> 00:48:34,646 it stopped... 662 00:48:36,447 --> 00:48:37,641 it stopped... 663 00:48:39,207 --> 00:48:40,526 immobile... 664 00:48:41,527 --> 00:48:42,676 very... 665 00:48:44,087 --> 00:48:45,281 immobile... 666 00:48:46,487 --> 00:48:47,522 Very, 667 00:48:49,567 --> 00:48:50,682 very 668 00:48:52,247 --> 00:48:53,362 immobile. 669 00:49:25,047 --> 00:49:28,084 Did not appear and I started to calm down. 670 00:49:28,247 --> 00:49:32,365 I felt especially confident at night. 671 00:49:33,167 --> 00:49:35,601 During the day, I even dreamed awake it came to me 672 00:49:36,007 --> 00:49:39,602 and that he was talking to her, he opened his mind, he taught it. 673 00:49:40,047 --> 00:49:42,561 And finally I discovered who loved me, 674 00:49:43,527 --> 00:49:45,358 but it seemed not realizing it. 675 00:49:45,527 --> 00:49:47,563 I don't know why. pretended such a thing. 676 00:49:47,727 --> 00:49:50,036 I guess for doing it more interesting. 677 00:49:50,527 --> 00:49:52,518 Then we started to live together. 678 00:49:53,207 --> 00:49:54,481 We were getting married. 679 00:49:55,047 --> 00:49:57,242 I finally learned to love nature. 680 00:49:57,767 --> 00:49:59,758 Etcetera, etcetera, etcetera. 681 00:50:00,647 --> 00:50:03,605 Go ahead with that fantasy until it made me nauseous. 682 00:50:03,927 --> 00:50:05,599 It was all so absurd. 683 00:50:06,767 --> 00:50:09,725 I was thinking, for a moment: She's a whore, they won't let her go. 684 00:50:10,447 --> 00:50:12,005 Then I was sure of what would come. 685 00:50:13,287 --> 00:50:16,597 I hated her, but I wanted her to come, more than anything in the world. 686 00:50:53,807 --> 00:50:57,322 �Turn off that syphilitic music, damn moron! 687 00:50:57,487 --> 00:50:58,602 Turn it off! 688 00:51:04,727 --> 00:51:05,716 That's it! 689 00:51:06,287 --> 00:51:07,322 That's it! 690 00:51:15,447 --> 00:51:16,766 -Yes? - I want you to turn down the music. 691 00:51:16,927 --> 00:51:17,677 Go take a shit. 692 00:51:17,847 --> 00:51:19,599 Why don't you go shit yourself? I can't even think! 693 00:51:19,767 --> 00:51:22,679 - Are you a man or a fucking mouse? - I'll call the police! 694 00:51:22,847 --> 00:51:25,566 Do you want me to call the police? 695 00:51:29,767 --> 00:51:30,563 What's wrong? 696 00:51:30,927 --> 00:51:32,280 Are you okay, uncle? 697 00:51:32,567 --> 00:51:33,556 I'm sorry. 698 00:51:33,887 --> 00:51:36,685 - Is something wrong with you? - I won't call again. 699 00:51:45,807 --> 00:51:47,160 Do you want to come in? 700 00:51:51,247 --> 00:51:52,680 Sit down, please. 701 00:52:00,327 --> 00:52:01,760 You should take off your coat. 702 00:52:04,687 --> 00:52:07,565 We're leaving. Goodbye. 703 00:52:32,367 --> 00:52:35,598 you find me in an uncomfortable situation. 704 00:52:35,767 --> 00:52:37,519 Don't imagine anything. 705 00:52:38,567 --> 00:52:40,603 I'm not ashamed be without money 706 00:52:41,327 --> 00:52:42,282 I... 707 00:52:44,407 --> 00:52:47,399 In fact, I'm proud of it. I want to say I'm poor, but... 708 00:52:59,127 --> 00:53:00,321 What's happening? 709 00:53:07,047 --> 00:53:08,036 Liza. 710 00:53:10,407 --> 00:53:12,125 Do you despise me? 711 00:53:32,167 --> 00:53:33,964 I... 712 00:53:36,087 --> 00:53:38,521 I wanted to get out of there. 713 00:53:40,127 --> 00:53:40,957 exit 714 00:53:42,247 --> 00:53:43,521 that place 715 00:53:45,167 --> 00:53:46,361 where we met. 716 00:53:54,367 --> 00:53:56,961 My heart burned with pity, 717 00:53:58,367 --> 00:54:00,562 but something disgusting inside me 718 00:54:00,727 --> 00:54:02,479 drowned the compassion, 719 00:54:04,167 --> 00:54:06,283 It made me even more angry. 720 00:54:07,447 --> 00:54:09,039 I wasn't worried what happened. 721 00:54:16,727 --> 00:54:17,921 I'm sorry. 722 00:54:21,127 --> 00:54:23,516 Why have you come? Can you answer me that? 723 00:54:29,247 --> 00:54:30,760 Why are you here? 724 00:54:31,367 --> 00:54:32,402 Answer me! 725 00:54:34,727 --> 00:54:36,080 Answer me! 726 00:54:40,007 --> 00:54:41,599 I will tell you why you have come. 727 00:54:42,687 --> 00:54:45,645 Because I told you a lot of nonsense, 728 00:54:45,967 --> 00:54:49,277 you feel sentimental and you want to hear them again. 729 00:54:49,447 --> 00:54:51,881 I could tell you I laughed at you then 730 00:54:52,047 --> 00:54:54,356 how I laugh at you now. I did it 731 00:54:54,527 --> 00:54:58,315 because they had just insulted me. 732 00:54:58,487 --> 00:55:00,284 I had been humiliated during dinner 733 00:55:00,447 --> 00:55:03,086 and went to the despicable House of Blue Lamps 734 00:55:04,127 --> 00:55:07,722 because I wanted to give him a lesson to the bastard who insulted me. 735 00:55:07,887 --> 00:55:09,764 But I was 736 00:55:09,967 --> 00:55:13,516 fucking with another whore, so I went with you. 737 00:55:16,207 --> 00:55:18,675 And you thought I was there to save you. Isn't that so? 738 00:55:18,847 --> 00:55:20,121 Is that what you believed? 739 00:55:20,967 --> 00:55:22,036 Save you? 740 00:55:24,287 --> 00:55:25,845 Save you from what? 741 00:55:27,007 --> 00:55:29,043 "I'm worse than you!" 742 00:55:35,367 --> 00:55:38,518 Why didn't you tell me it was a Shit, when did he give you that sermon? 743 00:55:38,687 --> 00:55:41,918 "Why didn't you ask me?" If he had gone to preach or to fuck? 744 00:55:46,967 --> 00:55:47,956 Power! 745 00:55:49,247 --> 00:55:50,566 That's what I want! 746 00:55:50,727 --> 00:55:51,955 I'm only looking for power! 747 00:55:52,527 --> 00:55:54,040 I was looking for your tears, 748 00:55:54,247 --> 00:55:56,715 your humiliation, your hysteria. 749 00:55:59,407 --> 00:56:02,285 I was not able to achieve it because I am weak, a scoundrel. 750 00:56:02,487 --> 00:56:04,239 And because I was scared. 751 00:56:05,247 --> 00:56:07,238 I don't know why I gave you my address. 752 00:56:09,647 --> 00:56:12,115 When you got home you were already cursing for it, 753 00:56:12,807 --> 00:56:15,685 and I hate you for the lies what i told you 754 00:56:17,647 --> 00:56:20,115 I have been here prostrate three whole days, 755 00:56:20,287 --> 00:56:22,596 terrified at the thought that you appeared. 756 00:56:23,527 --> 00:56:25,085 And, you know something? 757 00:56:29,407 --> 00:56:31,238 You know what What worried me the most? 758 00:56:31,527 --> 00:56:33,757 What did you think it was? some kind of hero 759 00:56:33,927 --> 00:56:36,157 and you came and you found me like this. 760 00:56:36,327 --> 00:56:39,364 And I will never forgive you that you heard my confession! 761 00:56:41,207 --> 00:56:43,880 I hate you for being here, 762 00:56:44,047 --> 00:56:45,321 for listening to me. 763 00:56:45,487 --> 00:56:48,001 "You have no right to hear" what I'm telling you! 764 00:56:49,327 --> 00:56:51,158 What do you want? What more do you want? 765 00:56:52,807 --> 00:56:54,798 Why are you still here? Why don't you leave? 766 00:56:55,407 --> 00:56:56,317 Go! 767 00:56:59,807 --> 00:57:00,717 Go! 768 00:57:18,567 --> 00:57:20,558 I can't be good. 769 00:57:34,527 --> 00:57:35,562 Are you okay? 770 00:58:14,887 --> 00:58:16,400 Do you want to drink something? 771 00:58:17,407 --> 00:58:18,522 No, thanks. 772 00:58:21,167 --> 00:58:22,236 Are you okay? 773 00:58:22,407 --> 00:58:25,126 I don't think I have anything except water. 774 00:58:25,367 --> 00:58:27,642 It's okay. I don't need anything. 775 00:58:29,287 --> 00:58:31,642 It's midnight. I have to work tomorrow. 776 00:58:32,207 --> 00:58:33,720 Do you want me to go? 777 00:58:34,647 --> 00:58:35,523 No. 778 00:58:36,247 --> 00:58:37,157 Really? 779 00:58:37,447 --> 00:58:38,846 Are you sure? 780 00:58:39,167 --> 00:58:42,045 - I don't want to abuse. - I said no. 781 00:58:42,207 --> 00:58:44,243 I don't want you to come back to that place. 782 00:58:46,727 --> 00:58:47,716 Thank you. 783 00:58:51,767 --> 00:58:52,961 Where do you work? 784 00:58:53,367 --> 00:58:55,164 At City Hall, in the Department of Urban Planning. 785 00:58:59,767 --> 00:59:00,802 Really? 786 00:59:02,127 --> 00:59:03,845 It is a job that demands a lot. 787 00:59:05,327 --> 00:59:06,396 Sure. 788 00:59:09,767 --> 00:59:12,600 You don't care spend the night here? 789 00:59:12,847 --> 00:59:14,246 I already told you. 790 00:59:17,047 --> 00:59:17,957 Yes. 791 00:59:23,407 --> 00:59:25,363 You must be very tired. 792 00:59:26,647 --> 00:59:27,523 Yes. 793 00:59:35,767 --> 00:59:37,166 All yours. 794 00:59:48,567 --> 00:59:51,240 A woman in my apartment. 795 00:59:51,727 --> 00:59:53,479 Who would have thought it? 796 00:59:54,807 --> 00:59:57,958 someone wanted spend the night with me. 797 00:59:58,447 --> 01:00:00,642 Then I thought: She's just a whore. 798 01:00:02,527 --> 01:00:06,315 Although I didn't come for sex, but for something else... 799 01:00:07,287 --> 01:00:09,164 like someone in need. 800 01:00:13,447 --> 01:00:15,756 Did that mean there was stopped being a whore? 801 01:00:56,167 --> 01:00:57,520 Aren't you tired? 802 01:00:58,527 --> 01:01:00,563 I always read before going to sleep. 803 01:06:36,407 --> 01:06:37,556 Good morning! 804 01:06:49,087 --> 01:06:50,884 Have you slept on the floor? 805 01:06:53,807 --> 01:06:56,321 I'm not used to it to sleep with anyone. 806 01:06:59,247 --> 01:07:01,397 Very sorry. 807 01:07:01,607 --> 01:07:04,121 I feel terrible. I could have slept on the floor. 808 01:07:06,047 --> 01:07:07,162 No problem. 809 01:07:10,647 --> 01:07:11,523 So, 810 01:07:11,927 --> 01:07:15,158 I close the door When do I leave? 811 01:07:18,967 --> 01:07:20,002 Thank you 812 01:07:20,687 --> 01:07:22,643 for being so kind to me. 813 01:07:29,407 --> 01:07:31,238 I think I have another key. 814 01:07:38,167 --> 01:07:39,122 Take. 815 01:07:39,607 --> 01:07:40,881 This is from... 816 01:07:43,087 --> 01:07:45,806 Will I see you later? 817 01:07:50,567 --> 01:07:52,125 I guess so. 818 01:07:55,927 --> 01:07:57,804 I have to go, okay? 819 01:07:57,967 --> 01:07:58,922 Goodbye. 820 01:07:59,367 --> 01:08:00,197 Goodbye. 821 01:08:02,767 --> 01:08:04,962 I left thinking: �why did I give you the key? 822 01:08:05,367 --> 01:08:07,005 �What had taken over me? 823 01:08:08,807 --> 01:08:11,241 No, I had to behave like a hero 824 01:08:11,687 --> 01:08:13,245 Make a grand gesture. 825 01:08:13,407 --> 01:08:15,363 Give him the keys to the kingdom. 826 01:08:22,527 --> 01:08:24,483 � And now what? I thought that one day 827 01:08:24,647 --> 01:08:27,366 I would approach the house from Simon to chat. 828 01:08:28,207 --> 01:08:29,765 �Where would it all end? 829 01:08:33,607 --> 01:08:36,883 I had never been grateful so much to have my job. 830 01:08:38,127 --> 01:08:41,358 Still, I couldn't leave thinking about Liza. 831 01:08:42,047 --> 01:08:44,322 I was hoping that had the decency 832 01:08:44,487 --> 01:08:47,081 to leave and leave me alone. 833 01:08:48,127 --> 01:08:49,003 Maybe he would leave� 834 01:08:49,327 --> 01:08:51,397 a note of thanks for having changed his life, 835 01:08:51,567 --> 01:08:53,922 before disappearing delicately forever. 836 01:08:54,367 --> 01:08:55,356 �That's all? 837 01:08:56,767 --> 01:08:57,643 How? 838 01:08:58,767 --> 01:08:59,722 Is that all? 839 01:09:02,727 --> 01:09:03,955 Let's hope so. 840 01:09:06,087 --> 01:09:07,281 APPROVED 841 01:09:17,007 --> 01:09:20,443 As I headed home, I was afraid that Liza was still there. 842 01:09:21,487 --> 01:09:24,240 I also feared that would have gone away. 843 01:09:27,447 --> 01:09:29,756 Love is a bitter dilemma. 844 01:09:58,927 --> 01:09:59,882 Hello. 845 01:10:07,407 --> 01:10:10,046 I've cleaned a little. I hope you don't mind. 846 01:10:10,367 --> 01:10:11,402 No. It's okay. 847 01:10:13,647 --> 01:10:14,921 How was work? 848 01:10:15,087 --> 01:10:17,043 Awful. 849 01:10:17,527 --> 01:10:18,755 It's always horrible. 850 01:10:19,167 --> 01:10:20,282 I'm sorry. 851 01:10:23,607 --> 01:10:25,325 I think I have found a job. 852 01:10:27,087 --> 01:10:28,600 A normal job. 853 01:10:28,767 --> 01:10:30,564 In some warehouses. 854 01:10:34,967 --> 01:10:38,277 And I have found a little studio that I can rent. 855 01:10:39,087 --> 01:10:39,837 Already. 856 01:10:40,087 --> 01:10:41,281 It's close to here. 857 01:10:42,967 --> 01:10:43,922 Great. 858 01:10:47,847 --> 01:10:49,166 Is something wrong? 859 01:10:49,687 --> 01:10:50,563 Bad? 860 01:10:51,047 --> 01:10:52,685 What can go wrong? 861 01:10:56,487 --> 01:10:58,603 I thought you would be happy. 862 01:10:59,087 --> 01:11:02,204 - At least a little. For me. - Am I happy for you? 863 01:11:02,407 --> 01:11:03,362 No. 864 01:11:05,407 --> 01:11:06,203 Yes. 865 01:11:07,247 --> 01:11:09,477 After what you said. 866 01:11:09,887 --> 01:11:12,640 After what I did 867 01:11:12,847 --> 01:11:13,996 to change... 868 01:11:16,607 --> 01:11:18,199 And after last night. 869 01:11:20,567 --> 01:11:22,205 It hasn't occurred to you 870 01:11:24,047 --> 01:11:24,923 think that 871 01:11:26,807 --> 01:11:28,763 Are there other things in my life? 872 01:11:31,007 --> 01:11:33,237 Other things that make me miserable. 873 01:11:33,407 --> 01:11:37,082 That maybe I like to be unhappy If it is the price of being honest. 874 01:11:43,327 --> 01:11:44,282 I'm sorry. 875 01:11:47,607 --> 01:11:48,722 I didn't intend 876 01:11:48,887 --> 01:11:50,115 be selfish 877 01:11:50,887 --> 01:11:52,798 You have been very good to me. 878 01:11:57,087 --> 01:12:00,363 I don't want to be a burden to you. 879 01:12:02,727 --> 01:12:04,797 I don't have to I'll stay here tonight. 880 01:12:06,767 --> 01:12:08,723 Of course you don't have why stay 881 01:12:08,927 --> 01:12:11,043 I didn't mean that. 882 01:15:42,247 --> 01:15:44,807 She had already understood everything. 883 01:15:45,527 --> 01:15:47,358 He had finally managed to insult her. 884 01:15:48,287 --> 01:15:52,041 I knew that my outburst of passion was only revenge. 885 01:15:52,527 --> 01:15:54,643 I already knew that I was 886 01:15:55,447 --> 01:15:56,516 despicable, 887 01:15:57,087 --> 01:15:58,998 unable to love her. 888 01:16:00,647 --> 01:16:03,719 that he was incapable to love anyone. 889 01:16:05,407 --> 01:16:08,285 For me to love It means to tyrannize. 890 01:16:08,767 --> 01:16:10,644 A battle for domination. 891 01:16:10,807 --> 01:16:13,765 It is not a question of reasoning. The reason is illness. 892 01:16:14,887 --> 01:16:16,002 Look at me. 893 01:16:21,727 --> 01:16:23,126 Look at me. 894 01:16:33,607 --> 01:16:35,006 Look at me! 895 01:16:38,207 --> 01:16:39,560 I am a worm 896 01:16:40,607 --> 01:16:41,881 ridiculous, 897 01:16:42,847 --> 01:16:43,836 petty, 898 01:16:44,927 --> 01:16:46,246 sickly 899 01:16:49,447 --> 01:16:51,358 But other worms they don't feel 900 01:16:52,327 --> 01:16:54,158 ashamed or embarrassed. 901 01:16:56,167 --> 01:16:57,441 That's my curse. 902 01:17:30,607 --> 01:17:31,562 Goodbye. 903 01:17:47,687 --> 01:17:48,642 Goodbye. 904 01:18:10,047 --> 01:18:10,957 Liza. 905 01:18:13,847 --> 01:18:14,802 Liza. 906 01:18:49,567 --> 01:18:52,604 Why did you run after her? Why? 907 01:18:53,647 --> 01:18:55,285 �To beg him forgive me! 908 01:18:55,567 --> 01:18:57,637 I was desperately searching your forgiveness! 909 01:18:58,887 --> 01:18:59,956 Why? 910 01:19:00,327 --> 01:19:02,124 If I had found her, If you had forgiven me, 911 01:19:02,287 --> 01:19:04,562 I wouldn't have started to torment her again? 912 01:20:18,127 --> 01:20:20,163 �I stayed there� without moving! 913 01:20:21,167 --> 01:20:24,159 Half dead, with an aching heart. 914 01:20:26,087 --> 01:20:29,363 But it was better let her go. 915 01:20:30,127 --> 01:20:32,436 It was better for her that he hated me. I would give you 916 01:20:32,887 --> 01:20:35,481 something for which feel superior. 917 01:20:37,767 --> 01:20:39,644 I never saw Liza again. 918 01:20:58,407 --> 01:21:01,205 Even now, many years later, 919 01:21:01,847 --> 01:21:03,724 All this is very... 920 01:21:06,327 --> 01:21:09,046 unpleasant to remember, 921 01:21:09,967 --> 01:21:11,116 to confess 922 01:21:16,647 --> 01:21:19,719 I have so many unpleasant memories. 923 01:21:24,647 --> 01:21:26,956 Maybe this confession be a mistake. 924 01:21:28,887 --> 01:21:31,117 I have felt ashamed all the time. 925 01:21:35,327 --> 01:21:38,444 It's not so much a confession like a moral story 926 01:21:38,607 --> 01:21:40,757 to show how I have ruined my life, 927 01:21:42,927 --> 01:21:44,042 out of pure resentment. 928 01:21:47,207 --> 01:21:49,323 We have all deserted of the habit of living. 929 01:21:49,887 --> 01:21:51,764 Living is a pain. 930 01:21:52,207 --> 01:21:54,960 We all prefer watch life on television. 931 01:21:56,927 --> 01:21:58,997 We are all more or less retarded. 932 01:22:00,087 --> 01:22:03,636 In my life I have only arrived to a logical conclusion, 933 01:22:03,807 --> 01:22:06,480 while you have not not even remotely close to his. 934 01:22:07,247 --> 01:22:10,045 They confuse their cowardice with decency. 935 01:22:10,207 --> 01:22:12,721 They console themselves deceiving themselves. 936 01:22:14,807 --> 01:22:17,002 �Maybe I He is more alive than you! 937 01:22:21,447 --> 01:22:24,723 But it's okay now. Enough of comments from the basement.